Jake was “due” 3 days ago. It’s only 3 days and it feels like so much longer.
Right now – and I don’t want to admit it – I feel sadness. I feel so many other emotions – overwhelm about the unknown of have 2 kids outside the womb, anxiety about how the birth process will go, fearfulness about whether Jake is perfectly healthy and whether I’ll come out of this perfectly healthy, anxiety about my ability to deal with the uncomfortableness/pain, annoyance that I’ve got to rely on others to watch McKenzie while we go to the hospital, a sense of failure (and I get that this is not rational) that I haven’t had the baby yet, frustration that Read the rest of this entry »
